High school is finally over.
I had the entire summer off.
I got a new boyfriend.
I don't anyone from school anymore.
I have a select few friends, but it's okay.
I apreciate them.

I don't know what I'm doing for college.
I really don't know what I want to do.
I always wanted to do something with art.
Art school in Chicago will run ya about $80,000.
Money I don't have.

The commute back and forth to Chicago wouldn't be bad.
But I sat down and really thought about...
What the fuck am I going to do after I have a degree in art?
Photography/Fashion/ etc... whatever.
How many people really hire artists in Chicago?
In any city for that matter?

A lot of it seems like hard work.
A lot of personal time committed to projects.
Critisism that I probably wouldn't be able to handle.
Especially my view on what beauty is... involves needles or blood.

My main focus right now is getting a job.
At least for a year.
To save up for a car to drive to wherever I need to go.
If I can't go places on my own, what good is anything right now?
I can't rely on other people for rides.
I feel like I'm using them.
I don't want that.

I want to be independant.

The colleges I'm thinking of right now is being a Vet Assistant
or going to a bakery college and opening up my own bakery.
At least a cake decorator has bit of creativity.
And if my work isn't good... it'll be eaten anyways.
Vet assistant is at Fox College, which isn't too far from me.

Other news:
-I bought a pet hamster, Butters.
He's cute and I love him.
-I'm on ADD medicine which is driving me crazy.
I need to stop taking.
-I got a new Daft Punk tattoo.
I'm absolutely in love with it, even if my mom hates it.
-Overall I've been in a pretty good mood.
I'm trying not to dwell on "being an adult" and trying to just
be happy that I can finally decide what I want to do with my life.

Peace.

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